So who knew that getting pregnant could be this hard!! Josh and I got married on September 13th 2008. We dated for 12 years before that so we knew we wanted to start a family. After one failed pregnancy and the amount of time it took to get pregnant I was discouraged. You read all these stories and they tell you not to think about it and not to try so hard and it will happen. Really I just couldn’t I really wanted this. So in August 2009 I went away with the girls to Savannah GA, a much needed girl vacation. I was kind of a bore and didn’t want to leave the house at night to go and party. Sarah said maybe you are pregnant. At this point I didn’t think it would happen. We came home I took the test and it said pregnant!! Oops I felt bad for the drinks I did have. We were so happy but also scared because of what happened the first time. Some time goes by and I’m at work no less and I started to bleed. I called my doctor and they made an appointment for me the next day. I was so upset, how I could wait for the next day to see if this was yet again another miss carriage. Josh and I had to find this out we went that night to the ER. I was almost 3 months pregnant so this would be my first ultrasound. We waited and waited and I hate to say it but since we already experienced something like this we weren’t positive. Finally the ultrasound tech called us in. She was looking at the screen which felt like hours. Then our conversation went a little like this.
Ultrasound tech: I think I see something
Me: what? What?
UT: Do you see this flickering
Me: YES
UT: Well that is a heartbeat
ME: WHAT???
UT: The baby heartbeat
I couldn’t believe it, besides her birth this really was the best day ever. That is how the name flicker came about. She said I shouldn’t tell you this but from my experience it looks like you have a Subchorionic Hemorrhage. A sub what?? A subchorionic hematoma is a type of blood clot found between the pregnancy membranes and the wall of the uterus. This was normal and it wasn’t affecting the baby, what a relief.
You hear women say how great they feel during pregnancies. I wasn’t one of those women. It started with the swelling of my feet, I literally looked like Shrek. They thought I had preacclamsia. So I went in for tests and luckily they came back negative, great!! Then I get a phone call that I am anemic and I failed my diabetes test. After taking all this news in I get another frantic phone call 2 days later saying I must call the doctor on the emergency line. They tell me my potassium and magnesium is low that I have to see a specialist that I could go into cardiac arrest. So now I’m going to have a heart attack on top of all this other stuff. I cried all the way home. I just couldn’t take what this was doing to my body and it wasn’t just me flicker was involved as well. I realized after going to the kidney specialist that when these OBGYN doctors find something out of their element they go nuts. I’m sure they are all scared of malpractice suits and their patient isn’t just you it’s your baby or babies. So fine I take some supplements and go on this horrible diet for my sugar. After leaving the nutritionist I cry and cry and cry. I ended up losing weight rather then putting it on (which now I appreciate because it didn’t take much to take off the weight). But the one good thing my doctor said was it wasn’t my fault and its temporary. I knew that one day I can go back to eating normal for now I had to do this for myself and flicker.
Ultrasound tech: I think I see something
Me: what? What?
UT: Do you see this flickering
Me: YES
UT: Well that is a heartbeat
ME: WHAT???
UT: The baby heartbeat
I couldn’t believe it, besides her birth this really was the best day ever. That is how the name flicker came about. She said I shouldn’t tell you this but from my experience it looks like you have a Subchorionic Hemorrhage. A sub what?? A subchorionic hematoma is a type of blood clot found between the pregnancy membranes and the wall of the uterus. This was normal and it wasn’t affecting the baby, what a relief.
You hear women say how great they feel during pregnancies. I wasn’t one of those women. It started with the swelling of my feet, I literally looked like Shrek. They thought I had preacclamsia. So I went in for tests and luckily they came back negative, great!! Then I get a phone call that I am anemic and I failed my diabetes test. After taking all this news in I get another frantic phone call 2 days later saying I must call the doctor on the emergency line. They tell me my potassium and magnesium is low that I have to see a specialist that I could go into cardiac arrest. So now I’m going to have a heart attack on top of all this other stuff. I cried all the way home. I just couldn’t take what this was doing to my body and it wasn’t just me flicker was involved as well. I realized after going to the kidney specialist that when these OBGYN doctors find something out of their element they go nuts. I’m sure they are all scared of malpractice suits and their patient isn’t just you it’s your baby or babies. So fine I take some supplements and go on this horrible diet for my sugar. After leaving the nutritionist I cry and cry and cry. I ended up losing weight rather then putting it on (which now I appreciate because it didn’t take much to take off the weight). But the one good thing my doctor said was it wasn’t my fault and its temporary. I knew that one day I can go back to eating normal for now I had to do this for myself and flicker.
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